No more do I get to hold his hand, hear his laughter, and hear that beautiful heart. Just please know you're not alone and I'll be sending love and prayers to you. He was such a great husband and father. Before I met him I thought I wasn't having any more kids, so I had my tubes tide. It's says everything in my heart ..and more!! She was 84, passing away just before Christmas 2014. The loneliness and emptiness are just overwhelming. He was my world, my everything, my best friend, my lover, my soulmate. I'm trying to be the great pretender so others think all is okay. We were out having drinks with friends and decided to go back to their place. Kathy Murphy To have what we had was so special. Not even going through it before prepared me for it. I know he wouldn't want me to be crying and so lost, so I try each day to be strong, remembering all that we did, our laughs, holding onto all the memories we created.thank you for this platformit's 11:51pm eastern time, and as usual, I can't sleep because he is always on my mind. Taking one day at a time, often with tears streaming down my face even when I am remembering good memories. My heart bleeds profusely. Paramedics arrived and they took over to try to save him. My kids are going to be too young to remember their daddy, but I just don't want to be here without him. I feel I can't take it anymore! I work because I have no other choice, but everyone says I look terrible. I begin to feel as if God gave me this wonderful man to me in reparation of my painful life. I am so devastated. I'm angry at myself, at the doctors, at him. Believe it or not, reading those letters, I didn't feel so alone. The silence is deafening. Now I'm shattered and wondering if God was laughing at me. This poem is rather lengthy, but you can share an excerpt from it at your sister's funeral. Someday I will see him again, but I have spent my life alone. Everything I do brings me so many memories of my husband. Do not visit my grave. He should still be sitting in his recline. I'm so angry, so alone and will never forget seeing my Ken, laying there and not able to save him. He was my rock, my best friend. I've never gotten over her. I have a very supportive family and love them to death, but it's a different love that I shared with my husband for 19 years. I find as the years go on my loneliness increases. I cry and don't even realize I am. Ruthann, Ohio. Thank you for giving us life and sharing your smile. She was truly the center of the family. Yes the nights are hardest, sometimes you cannot sleep without some kind of help. I miss him every minute of every day and I know life will never ever be the same. This poem is exactly how I feel!!! It feels like he's been gone too long that it's time for him to come back to me. My dear husband worked as an engineer for 52 years until he turned 70. l told him when he was 64 to stop working. She had 10 radiation treatments and only 1 chemo because after the first chemo treatment she came home and collapsed, so we had to bring her back to the cancer institute. This lemonade stand is closed. I lost my husband 2 years ago after nearly 50 years of marriage. I will love and miss you forever, Paul. My smile is masked and the days are long and dreary. Nobody could take his place because he was a one of a kind. Everyone says it will get better but, until you've lost the love of your life, your bestfriend, your husband and soulmate you will never understand my pain or what I'm going through. I just can't comprehend what happened. He began asking me who I am. Life moves on and basically drags you with it leaving you still trying to compute the harsh reality. I feel so lost. I try to smile and put on a "happy" face for the world. All stories are moderated before being published. They were in a car accident together. I tell myself that he is away on a conference with him job and one time I will look up at see him. He developed hepatic encephalopathy during his last month of life, so my most vivid memories are of him being confused, having tremors, not being able to walk without help, or feed himself, he was restless, and said he couldn't breathe. I often go and walk along the beach and think of him. I want you to take away my fear. May 11, 2022 - Explore Victoria Smith's board "Missing my husband", followed by 226 people on Pinterest. I lost the love of my life, my soulmate, my best friend, lover, protector, caretaker and father to our two beautiful amazing daughters on February 5, 2019. Best friend for 30 years and married for the last 16. They tell me to be strong for the children, which I do. I was touched by each poem and story. He was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in February 2006. This spoke to me so much because the reason I married him was partly because of how safe I felt around him. I lost my husband in August 2017, and we have a 14 year old. I married my husband on 2/1/17 and lost him on 2/27/17. We met when I was sixteen and were together our entire adult lives, 32 years. We were supposed to grow old together. I lost my husband 4 months and 10 days now to be exact. I don't know what's ahead for me. There is no one to talk to. While we were eating, one of the granddaughters (paramedic) said to my husband if he were in her ambulance she would take him to the ER. He was my John again. He then fell back on me into my arms, seizing as I held him. I get to remain in eternal grief. He loved and cherished us; we loved and cherished him and still do. I have heard there is no grief that is the same. I truly thought I could not go on without him but every day gets better. The silence is deafening to my ears. They gave him pain medicine for the shoulder and it went away. I know it doesn't get any easier as time goes by because I lost my husband 9 years ago from complication from a surgery he had and to come to find out he had cancer. He was 49. He passed away in my arms in our home, exactly where he wanted to pass. People tell me I should get "over it". Claude McKay, ' Absence '. It's only been 60 days since his life and most of mine ended. I expect much the same from my situation, and I have only lost my wife for 3 months! Now I dread each day. My life just came crashing down. I miss him so bad. Talk about a "double whammy!" Your words dropped into my heart like pebbles into a pool, Rippling around my breast and leaving it melting cool. We were very close, and I still can't believe I'll never see his sweet smile, hold his hand, or enjoy his since of humor! My blood burns. Now my life feels done. Then at around 7:30 p.m. he was ready to go home. As I read this, my skin spiked as your story and mine sound very similar. He was only 47. That's when I found out. I was with him since I was 18 years old. I wanted to go with him and sometimes still do, just to see him and touch him again. I am still in great grief. I am always thinking about you. My grandson has my husband's eyes bluish grey beautiful. November of 2017 we traveled the 73 miles to see the doctor. And was loved in return. Much love and strength to you all. The pain and loneliness just get easier to carry. I really know what you're going through. The only relief is knowing that every day I live is a day closer to being with him again. He was told when he was 48 he had liver cancer. He lost his voice. We remember you always. My precious husband passed away August 10th, 2012. I scream for him every day. Hi, I just lost my husband, Michael, the love of my life. I think they want to make us feel better but don't know what to say. I laid my head upon my husband's chest while they turned off his life support. I lost my husband 15 days, 8 hours and 8 mins ago we just burying him yesterday. Ty thoughts are with you. The nights are just the hardesthis face kept haunting mekept coming to my dreamI keep hearing a friend said that life still goes on, yeah it's easy for them to say it because they don't know how painful and regret I feel. I still can't believe he is gone. I lost my partner, Luke, the night of Jan 26, 2022. Our life together was still so full of promise and dreams of things to come. 30+ 'Missing You at Christmas' Quotes, Poems & Songs Kiss more, hold each other longer, and don't sweat the small stuff, for none of us are promised tomorrow. I miss you so much. He got up in the morning and got dressed and went outside like he normally did every morning to get some air. He also sends me blue morpho butterflies whenever I need reassurances as he promised he'd do too (they are in picture forms only as they are native to Costa Rica only). So during the day I try to be strong but when I get home I miss him so much. He died 48 hours later from a PE. We have a 33-year-old son and he is everything to me. I miss him so much, and I cannot come to terms with his death. I feel your pain. Miss him putting his arms around me when we went to sleep. When I curl into a little ball My fears, remembering the night, reaching for him. I wish I could've changed places with him or that God would take my life as well. I wanted to commit suicide so badly when my husband died. I'm on SSI and disability, and he had no life insurance, so it's gonna be hard to move on moneywise. Thank you for letting me share a little bit on the loss of my best friend, my rock, and my love. I'm so heartbroken. Yes you count every minute, every second, hour, day and week. We had been married 18 years and our son was turning 2 in August. I love Him so much. I lost my husband not even a month ago on April 7, 2020. My faith in God and loving family and friends are faithful in their support, and I am grateful, but nothing at this time removes or lessens my grief. Until then, I know he would have been proud of my strength. My husband died on May 8, 2017. Breathe. I wake up with his names on my lips. He was told he had this on Sept 13, 2016. If ever man were lov'd by wife, then thee. Sometimes I feel I'm Okay but no, I'm still in pain. We never were able to have children. When I didn't, because you can't, one by one they drifted away. All other content on this website is Copyright 2006-2023 FFP Inc. All rights reserved. I worked night shift. I am so sorry for your loss. Delirium, yes it came on his last week of life. Can one really make lemonade out of the lemon of losing a husband? My husband has been gone for 17 months, and I still cry for him a lot. I am so lost without him. Pin on Inspiration and comforting words - Pinterest He lifted a concrete slab to the septics and tore his aorta all the way down. My heart was crushed! My poor soul wife got 2 months of it. I promised him I would learn to be happy, and this is what I am focusing on. I just want to say sorry for your loss. Lost, alone, no support. I hate what life I have left with NO future as we planned. We have 4 beautiful children and 4 beautiful grandchildren together. I don't know how to live, I was 16 when we became inseparable. Missing my husband - Pinterest Mostly for my four children. Blessed be the Lord. He had a total of 3 open hearts surgeries with 2 of them being 3 months apart. We were together 20 years. He never had a new truck, and that's why I cry more because he never got a chance to enjoy one! Being aware that ALS would take him did not help us prepare for the immense loss we feel. I miss you when your gone away. I feel that the more you loved and were loved in return, the worse the grief. Everyone says I can do it and be strong, but I am weak. I know your struggle. He was smart, handsome, caring and loved everyone. Not for me, you see true love never dies, I truly love my darling and he truly loved me. I feel so guilty because he said he would die within the year he would die, I didn't take him seriously and we had 1 anniversary and never again will we share another one. I don't think you do ever get over it! With the age different we knew that he may not be here forever. HE would be thirty and I am still angry!, I too lost my husband 4 months ago, I am lost without him. I remember holding Paul's hand till he took his last breath. My husband was unresponsive when they got him at the Hospital, Doctors came out to tell me that he passed away. This is the pattern of my life On his way out the door that day he said, give me a extra hug and kiss for my birthday. Dear Cheryl He pulled off the shoulder of the highway to secure a metal crate on the back of our pickup. We were supposed to say our I do's on 10/30/2017. I have to wait on God's will, but my life is empty until I can be with him. He never pulled through. I'm lost, I'm broken. My precious husband died March 20, 2018. It hurts every day. I miss him dearly and deeply. I feel like you are the only one who can understand what Im going through. I've just read your post and I couldnt believe how close it is to my nightmare that I'm now living in. I am sad and am trying so hard but it is heartbreaking to me. I moved to another city so I can try to change my thinking but it still haunts me. I wish I was the one to have found him so my son could have been spared such pain. My love and partner for the last 12 years just passed away on May 16, 2022, at just 31 years old due to complications with end stage renal failure. Suicidal thoughts come and go, but my religion tells me that it's not right, that I won't meet up with him should I die this way. I prayed to God to give me the strength to get stronger to show them to pray and never give up hope. Mostly for my 2 precious daughters. I am retired but am now forced to work again at 64. And I'm always thinking I didn't do my best. A year ago today the family met to celebrate my husband's 85th birthday. Hello everybody. And I can't wait to fall into his arms and finally be home again with him in God's eternal kingdom. Nothing helps to relieve your pain. My heart aches for you My eyes cry for you My senses long for you I, feel numb without you I wish I was with him. We were together 21 years. He passed away July 1, 2006. I love her so much. He was too young to go so soon, it was never a supposed to be this way. Katie, I lost my husband of 57 years also on November 7, 2016. Take care. I miss him more every day. He had kidney cancer that metastasized to his brain. I've lived. I lost my husband of 41 years December 27 th 2015. He left me with a daughter who is 24 years old now. I'm a 40 year old mother of three kids, ages 21, 17, and 10. Some days I still get wet eyes for no reason, but life does really go on. STOP! He had a GI doctor, and they just kept giving him different stomach meds to try. for I no longer exist there. Dear Marilyn, I lost my husband of 23 years 5 months ago - 10/27/18. I'm lost, angry, depressed, scared, you name it. I have no pain in leaving. It is so final and I have my faith. It's been such a long time. I was sure this was the end. Three of our daughters and I cared for him 24/7. Our 25th Anniversary is coming up soon and I don't know how I will get through it. We were making new memories. And life is no longer standing still but purpose is unfolding. See more ideas about grief quotes, miss you mom, grief. He would have been 72 years old in August of this year. Many trips to Iowa City to see the liver doctor. I thank God for him and our love It feels like yesterday. I'm good at pretending to be o.k. The pain I still feel everyday. By To say I am devastated is not even 100% of how I feel. To me those lost anniversaries are what really hit hardest. We were married 10 years. I cry my silent tears. I think he knew. I wish you were here today, my love. Xx. I need desperately to be in a good place for my babies. On the same day, unknown to my son, my daughter gave birth to her son. I miss him so much. Subsequently, he died from severe infections. She never complained. While on our family vacation at the beach on July 9 Barry got out of the ocean and made it to our chairs. Death Of A Spouse Partner Loss Poems - Greeting Cards For Facebook My heart is shattered. 23 Perfect Love Poems For Husband (Beautiful words of love to share He was rushed to hospital and had two operations. 8. He made me a better woman. God wasn't calling me yet! They did wear any masks. And evening comes, He was also a very active person up until that day. Sometimes I lock myself in the room to cry. I am only 62 and I just wish I had some kind of closure although I do not think that would help either. Working around the house, God took him to soon, I was not prepared for him to go, I will never forget that day, He had just found out 1 month before he passed that he was going to be a grandpa, She arrived 3 days after his birthday, People keep telling me to move on and get over it, but I can't, I feel like the walls are coming down on me, its so quiet in the house, no one to talk to, no one visits anymore, I feel very alone, it is hard, I miss him so much. I lost my husband 5 months ago, I am lost without him. We were together 27 years. So glad I found this thread of emails today. When I read this writing I just wanted to share my story little bit. We spent 26 years together and we had 6 kids. They are buried across from each other. I miss you so much! It was so hard to listen to everyone saying that it will get easier and that I am very strong, when all I want to do is be with him.